When I was a little girl, I can remember tucking myself behind my mother anytime someone asked me something as simple as, “What is your name?” Being the youngest of five children, I embraced the role of shy. As I grew older, I would be asked to speak, and I would politely decline, stating “I don’t do that sort of thing. I am shy.” You can imagine the horror that came over me when I discovered, as Salutatorian of my high school class, I would have to give a speech in front of the whole school and town!
The problem with labels is that they can define not only who we are but what we do. It wasn’t until I was in my mid-twenties that I discovered shy is a choice, not a condition. I began to feel God ask me to say “Yes” to certain things. I reluctantly said “Yes” to one thing. Not only did I live to tell the story, but I discovered it was quite fun to share the things God has planted in my heart.
About four years ago, I started a blog called “Life Outside the Shell” because that was exactly what I was doing. I was stepping outside of my comfortable shell. I have since migrated to a blog that is just my name because God asked me to embrace who He made me to be in my original design. Shywas never a word God spoke over me. It was a word I received, but God is redeeming and restoring all of my years of silence.
Last year, I began to feel called to start a podcast. I stuck my fingers in my ears and sang “la-la-la-la” because I did not want to accept this call from God. I told Him I would pray about it and asked for confirmation. The next week, I discovered that the next series at Gateway would be REAL. God had given me the name “Real Talk with Rachael” for my podcast, so I knew this was my confirmation that I was to, once again, step out from underneath that shy label and use my voice for God’s glory.
I still struggle with the shy, timid little girl resurfacing, but now when she tries to arise, I remind her of all the good things God has done when I use my voice. Now that my why is bigger than my what ifs, the spirit of fear and timidity has no hold on me.
If you struggle with fear, shyness, or timidity, I encourage you to meditate on 2 Timothy 1:7, “For God has not given me a spirit of fear or timidity, but power, love and a sound mind.” I say this verse out loud daily. It lines up my thoughts and spirit with the word of God.
What is God calling you to share today? Do so in confidence knowing that the Lord has given you a unique voice that our world needs to hear.